I can't believe that it's been almost two years since we were blessed with Bennett! Everyone says time passes fast, and it's definitely true. I remember when they brought him out of the OR and stood in the hallway so that we could get a good look at him from the lobby. We both just stood there and stared I think. The nurse must of thought since neither of us were showing any emotion that apparently we couldn't see him very well, and invited us back to get a more close up view. She let us hold him for a brief second before he was taken into the nursery. We looked him over and smiled. Our case worker, whom is the same this time, kept saying over and over again that she didn't think we understood how beautiful he was. I knew he was beautiful, but the overwhelmingness of the entire situation kept me from seeing how beautiful our son was. I knew that I was made to be his mom, but at that point in time, I didn't feel like his mom. Sounds weird, I know, but its true. Now,I can't look at any of these newborn pictures of B without tearing up. Its funny how growing into the role of momma changes things! I am anticipating a much different response to the sight of our baby this time. This makes me very excited!

We booked our flights out for the 23rd of this month-10 days from now!!! Oh dear! T will be arriving the same day, and will go for her doctors appointment on the 24th. We are told that there is a slight chance that the doctor will go ahead and take him that same day, but more than likely, the c-section will be scheduled for the 25th. I am praying that we meet him on the 24th because this increases my chances of getting to come home the first week of June. Because government offices close in Utah on Fridays and the following Monday is a holiday, if he is born on the 25th, I will probably, unless God intervenes which I know He can do, will be there until the second week of June. This means I will be gone from B 2 1/2 to 3 weeks! The thought of this makes my belly hurt. Jonathan is going to fly home on the 30th of May so that B isn't away from both of us that long, which I know will be good for both of them. In the meantime, I will be making friends at the local Targets until I can get cleared to come home!

Prayer needs:

Pray that T's heart will continue to be softened to whatever the Lord has for her while we are there.

Pray that our paperwork gets pushed through both states without any hitches and in a timely (fast) manner.

Please pray that B's heart continues to be prepared for the transition that he is about to endure. I just tried putting him down for a nap in his "new" bed in his "new" room and that did not go exactly as I had planned. He is now napping in his crib!

Please continue to pray for the health of this sweet new little boy. I, of course, am praying that he likes to sleep as much as his brother does!

Thanks again for interceding for us! It makes all the difference!

Drumroll Please....It's a........

So, I was talking to a friend on Tuesday sharing with her that for the first time during our experience this go-round, I was feeling somewhat frustrated and disconnected. I knew that our agency had staff meetings on Tuesday, and had anxiously waited all day to here more details about our baby, and did not hear a thing all day. Some of our best friends had a baby on Tuesday, so my excitement and joy for them (and for me because I know this little boy with bless my life tremendously) took my mind off of it for most of the day, but by the evening I was somewhat heavy. We only had to wait 5 days last time before we left to meet Bennett, so these last couple of weeks has felt like an eternity especially when you aren't hearing any more news. It's easy to feel numb to the experience which honestly is what I was more discouraged about. We are approximately 3 weeks away from meeting our baby (I'll tell you the gender in a minute), and I hated the fact that I was starting to lose grasp on the fact that we were going to have a new little one soon.

So, as we were driving home late Tuesday night, I decided I would check my phon

e to see if I had missed any calls, and I had missed the call from our case worker. She left a message that I chose to not listen to in case she was telling me that she knew nothing more, and I called her back. Here's what I know........T was in a car accident earlier this week and was very shook up about it. She couldn't get in to see her regular OB so she saw a midwife who checked her over and did an ultrasound. Everything is okay. T is fine besides being rattled from the experience and baby is still doing great! The experience T had with the midwife was nothing short of ridiculous though, so she is seeing her regular OB today for another visit. The midwife did a fine job from the medical standpoint, but spent a long time with T trying to talk her out of placing this baby. This made T mad, so after she heard she and the baby were ok, she left and set up the appointment she has today with her doctor. She is measuring 35 weeks which is right where she should be, and we are supposed to find out today when her doctor is going to release her to fly to Utah. The agency wants her there now, and are thinking that her doctor probably isn't going to let her stay in her state much passed 35 weeks. So, we still don't know an exact date, but hopefully by tomorrow, we will. The agency is still saying that they won't let the baby be born before 38 weeks, but I think there is still a chance, though it may be slim, that T may talk them into taking the baby at 37 weeks. We will wait and see. Once we know a date, we can book our flights which will be nice to have done. If you think of it, just pray for T in these last couple of weeks she has at home with her daughter. I know that this is going to be very hard on her, and I would lov

e to cover her in prayer as much as possible. Thanks again for praying for us! It is a true joy to share this experience with you! Until next time........

It's a BOY!!!!!